I felt bummed out by this morning’s post and I don’t want this to be a maudlin newsletter so here’s a vlog of me complaining about stuff that’s none of my business in the weight room. I’m afraid the audio is still shitty and I don’t know why; I’m trying to figure out what’s up with that as I have a Yeti Blue USB mic which is supposed to be pretty good, as far as I know.
Tomorrow morning’s subscriber-only post is about the Dave Portnoy situation, and I hope to have the next chapter of The Dawn of Everything written up in the (opt-in) Book Club section, so look out for those. Cheers.
It seems that you've disabled comments on your previous post re "I would like closure," so forgive me for posting a comment here. A poem "Wild Geese" by Mary Oliver, full of the grace that we all need at some point in our lives:
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
Graceless people will never forgive you, so don't even try to gain their forgiveness. Graceful, generous people will forgive you without requiring you to beg. Move on.
I'll just post this here. Your body and closure posts offer a level of shockingly honest brilliance that I don't I've ever come across. At least for me there is a deep level of truth that I've never discussed with anyone - it's just too personal. And you shared that level of intimacy with the world. I'm so impressed and in awe.